a song is about you

Katy Mcallister – Here’s To The Heartbreakers -- So here is to the heartbreakers Who are so good at hiding all the evidence of them pretending. All along who were we kidding? You think that it is over, When did it ever begin? Don’t pretend like he was ever interested. He may have had you fooled by, The way he looked into your eyes. But no he really looked right through, through it all. He could swear he never meant it, Act like you’re overreacting, But he’s the tool who shouldn’t have been acting. How are they the ones attracting us? Here’s to the heartbreakers Who are so good at hiding all the evidence of them pretending. All along who were we kidding? I could find a man and not a boy. Yeah you’ll see what you’re missing. Yes I’m fine now, thanks for asking. Here’s to the fakers Here’s to the heartbreakers! You try to play his games but Then you’re the one who’s being confusing. He’ll keep using that old line, You could just tell me you don’t have the time. But no, you wanna leave me hanging. What’s the point in all of my waiting? I’m the one who’s noticing you, Guess that makes me obsessed with you. I turn your flaws into beauty, And you’re seeing this as a bad thing. Are you kidding me? Yeah well, you’re the one who’ll be missing me. So here is to the heartbreakers Who are so good at keeping us around While still keeping our confidence down. Do you feel as if you own me? I could find a man and not a boy. Yeah you’ll see what you’re missing. Yes I’m fine now, thanks for asking. Here’s to the takers Here’s to the heartbreakers! This is the story of a girl who builds her own thoughts. She has the faith that he’ll be more than what she only thinks she wants. She’s seen the bitter truth But when someone is looking right at you, It’s hard to see through the lying eyes When you’re mesmerized. Yeah I’m mesmerized. So here’s to you, the heartbreaker Who was so good at hiding all the evidence of your pretending. All along who was I kidding? And now for you, the heartbreaker Who was so good at keeping me around While still keeping my confidence down. Well you’ll never own me. You’ll never even have me… Yeah. Cause I could find a man and not a boy. Yes you’ll soon see what you’re missing. Did you get what you came for? Yeah, you’re a heartbreaker. Let me give you a little more. You know who you are… this one’s for you.

decisions need to be made

I haven't written for more than a year. And what a year 2011 was. I can't decide if it was mostly good or mostly bad, but I do know that I'm glad it's over.

When I first moved back to Indianapolis I was happy about the decision I made. I was happy to be home. I was happy to be working the job I had. I had high hopes for my life back here. Maybe that was the problem...expectations. Somehow the expectations I set for myself never seem to go as...well...expected.

At some point in the near future, I will fill you all in on the 3 relationships that occurred in 2011. There are some really good stories to be told. But for now, decisions need to be made. There are (hopefully) some big changes coming down the line for me in the very near future.

Happy New Year! and CHEERS to 2012!!

Resolutions for 2012:
1. Be on time (I stole this one from my friend, Abby-but I need to work on this as well).
2. Run this year's Mini Marathon in Indianapolis-started training this week.
3. Keep expectations reasonable-completely vague and immeasurable, but I'll do my best.