So, over the past 6 days, since the horrible date incident, I have been waiting for an answer. Part of this man wants me in his life, and another part does not. The part of him that wants me around is only visible when he is sober...unfortunately, he spends most of his free time drunk.
Well, last night was no exception, and he was a complete jerk to me. I will admit that right now, I'm a bit on the crazy side...I mean, really, who likes to sit around waiting for someone else to decide his/her fate. I ask too many questions, and last night he decided to ignore all these questions, well, at least until after the bar closed when he called me at 2:45am. I was in no mood at this point, until I get a text saying "I'm gay. Eff off already." This message upset and confused me even more, was it true? was he just trying to be funny? I had to know, so I called him. He was so drunk he couldn't get much of a sentence out...
So, I was very upset at the whole chain of events and sent a rather nasty text myself, so that he would see it in the morning and hopefully remember what a jerk he was. Just as expected, he called first thing this morning claiming he didn't remember talking to me. We went round and round as we usually do...him with his "I'm sorry" and me with my "why cant' you like me" routine...all the while no answers being given.
I've become obsessed that he's going out with other women, and constantly asking him about his every move. He seems to be drinking more and more. WHAT AM I DOING??? This guy has ruined, completely ruined my entire vacation, not to mention Thanksgiving with my family. He obviously does not have the ability to consider my feelings in this situation at all. Why do I think this guy is good for me? He doesn't seem too concerned with the fact he may lose me...for good. At least if I wasn't around, no one would be calling him out on his inappropriate behavior, and he could drink his liver out without anyone saying a word.
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