you get your hopes up

A little over a month ago I got a phone call from a previous GM of mine. He said that my name had come up in conversation about a job for which I would have been perfect. And...also would have gotten me back to Indianapolis. I was told I would be contacted after Christmas to set up an interview.

A few weeks went by, and I hadn't heard anything so I sent off my resume to said GM and let him know I was still interested in learning more about the position we had spoken about. He replied and let me know he hadn't forgotten about me and that he would be in touch.

Well, today I learned (not from my old GM, but through one of my current coworkers) that this position has been filled. And has been filled by a much lesser qualified candidate than I would have been. I wasn't even given the opportunity to interview for this position. How is this fair?

I know I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up about going back home, but I did. I told people about it, and now have to tell people that its not going to happen. I know that God must have a good reason to keep me in Dallas. It's just that two years of disappointment after disappointment has me questioning why I am still here. I feel like over the past year I have just kept losing things...friends, a boyfriend, self-confidence, mental stability. I know I have plenty to be thankful for, but right now it's hard to see past my own hurt feelings to get perspective.